New Beginnings

It seemed life is moving at warp speed and chaos is a constant companion from the itty bitty news at home to the global world stage.  The only thing that is within my purview is the little patch of grass where I can rest my head and watch the world go by.  I cannot be troubled by things not within my power to change.

It was just a week ago when poor Ozzie passed on.  I must have cried buckets because the Veterinary staff and doctor not only sent me a card but also a peace lily plant.  Some impression I must have left to merit such generous consoling gifts when I was at the pet emergency hospital.  When my emotions were spent and there were no more tears to shed, I recorded the scene of Ozzie's serene passing.  But the drama that preceded it must have been too intense even for the Veterinary care providers.  In my heart, it was tough even for myself.  Ozzie is now interred in the backyard with a stone slab to prevent predators digging his remains and as a marker.  I truly missed him.

As I remained in limbo with new job prospects mostly receiving polite letters of declined applications, I began to really focus on my trajectory.  Where do I want to go from here?  How do I continue my walk in life with a strategic purpose in mind?  What do I want to do now that I have so much free unvarnished time?

And then I remembered the words I saw on a building when I was back in the Philippines - St Thomas More's, "I am the king's loyal servant but God's first."  It gave me an idea and opened the door to a greater understanding of what I wanted to do.  Why not turn the table around and continue with the mission of serving the Veterans only this time as a volunteer?  I immediately applied as a volunteer and I am anticipating to hear from the VA.  

So does that mean I am fully resigned to my new pathway?  Absolutely!  With all the world's tumult, for once I can say - "it is well with my soul."