Self-Preservation
You were married once before and divorced but this was a fact you conveniently and purposefully did not tell me. At the blush of young love, I told you that there was only one impediment that will hold me back from marrying you. I cannot marry a divorcee.
My catholic upbringing hindered me from relationships that are deemed “spiritually conflicting.” That said, it came as a total shock to me to discover divorce papers from among your things a month after we were already married.
You lied to me about the most important thing I considered in my life — my faith! You told me that you had to do it because you did not want to lose me. You did not understand my zealous adherence to beliefs that formed my character. You admitted being selfish, that you acted based solely on the instinct of self-preservation. You said you were sorry.
I could have bolted out the door right there and then and have the marriage annulled. I was so mad at you. What kept me from leaving was the very sense of decency that shaped me into the person that I am. Did I not just promise to love you above all else when I married you? Why, at the first sign of trouble, was I ready to quit?
In that regard, we are kindred spirits. We do not believe in quitting. No matter what hardships we encountered in life whether it was brought on by unintended consequences of our actions or others, we did not give up on each other. In life, we remained steadfast and loyal. Even in death, I remained true to your memory. We learned a bigger lesson than self-preservation. That is, the true meaning of love and forgiveness in all our human failings, intended or not.
My catholic upbringing hindered me from relationships that are deemed “spiritually conflicting.” That said, it came as a total shock to me to discover divorce papers from among your things a month after we were already married.
You lied to me about the most important thing I considered in my life — my faith! You told me that you had to do it because you did not want to lose me. You did not understand my zealous adherence to beliefs that formed my character. You admitted being selfish, that you acted based solely on the instinct of self-preservation. You said you were sorry.
I could have bolted out the door right there and then and have the marriage annulled. I was so mad at you. What kept me from leaving was the very sense of decency that shaped me into the person that I am. Did I not just promise to love you above all else when I married you? Why, at the first sign of trouble, was I ready to quit?
In that regard, we are kindred spirits. We do not believe in quitting. No matter what hardships we encountered in life whether it was brought on by unintended consequences of our actions or others, we did not give up on each other. In life, we remained steadfast and loyal. Even in death, I remained true to your memory. We learned a bigger lesson than self-preservation. That is, the true meaning of love and forgiveness in all our human failings, intended or not.