Positive Steps

 My newfound attitude should be reinforced by concrete positive steps because it is easy to fall back into old ways of thinking and habits.  Change should be embraced wholeheartedly with fullest access to cognition.  It is not enough just to be aware.  I have to take it further by fully engaging with situations, people, and environment with my greatest guard against backsliding.  Resolve should be tempered by the will.  And my will should be guided by my deepest prayer.

Lord, what would you have me do in this situation?  How does this help me get closer to your purpose?  How does it help bring others to your kingdom?  What is the best way I can express the joy you bring into my life even in the midst of suffering and pain?  What is your ultimate will for me?

I am here to love God, to know Him intimately, and to serve Him passionately.  If my actions deter me from these three things, it is not God's will.  This is the purpose of my being, the reason why I am here, the task I have to complete.  This is what I have to do everyday - take up my cross and joyfully without reserve follow Him.