Daily Communion

 “How lovely is your dwelling place, Lord Almighty! My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God. Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young— a place near your altar, Lord Almighty, my King and my God. Blessed are those who dwell in your house; they are ever praising you.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭84:1-4‬ ‭NIV‬‬

https://www.bible.com/111/psa.84.1-4.niv

Why do I strive to go to church and receive the holy eucharist worthily everyday?  Because I believe oh God that it is you who made the soul your dwelling place.  You have offered your body and blood through this sacrament that my soul may live.  I only need to accept this grace and invite you into my heart.

There was a time when I went to church out of a sense of obligation under pain of mortal sin.  I was there physically but my mind and heart were millions of miles away.  I did not even know more than half the time what the gospel was about.  I was going to church out of duty’s summons; a list on my job I perfunctorily checked off.

All that changed when my husband passed away almost four years ago.  Suddenly, there was a gnawing open wound that cannot be healed.  There was an emptiness beyond anything I ever felt that choked me.  I was dying inside.  Then one day I decided to go to church at first to rationalize that I have to announce my presence in public since there would no longer be another person to validate that I exist.  That was when I began to experience a life beyond what my human understanding can ever know.  It is a life filled with the joy of your presence.

Thank you God for rescuing me.