Your 65th birthday

Today would have been your 65th birthday.  I don’t feel as much sadness now as when you died on October 13, 2017; not that I have grown distant or have forgotten since that time.  On the contrary, I accepted the finality of death as part of God’s plan.  Who am I to question God’s timing even if it meant that I have to reconstruct my life without you?

But are you really out of my life?  Do I not think of you always in my prayers?  Do I not call on you when I feel sad?  Do I not talk to you even when you answer only in silence?  Do I not remember you in moments when I need to make a decision?  Do I not hear your laughter in the musings of my mind?  

You were the most important person in my life, the very part of my being.  It was difficult to live without you.  But that I must do in order to find my way back to our  true home at the feet of Jesus.  When we meet again it will be as if we were never torn asunder.  We will be intimately in union with God, His Ángels, and His saints.

Death is not the end but the beginning of a beautiful spiritual life unlike what we experience on earth tethered to our sinful nature.   I pray that you are happy and at peace.  Someday, when God calls me home, you will be there to make this transition a joyous occasion rather than a frightening event.  You will be on the other side enveloping me with peace and calm and inexplicable joy.  Till then, please pray for me and the children.  We still have work to do.  Help us to soldier along in life always remembering in our thoughts and prayers those who have gone on before us.  I love you and remember you always.